Listen to your heart...

I read something on Daily Love today and reminded me of this note I had written in my journal more than a month ago when I was going through some stuff in my mind;

 " is funny that I have known this fact for so long now( you should not have to force something if it is meant to be and if it really is your heart and souls desire) but I do it again and again, my control freak personality, the habit of taking everything in my ego's hand makes me want a certain outcome, obsessing over something that I THINK it's what is meant to be and what is my soul intended. And yet again once things get bad and I find myself getting tortured by my own ego, I get slapped by the universe saying wake up! I told you the day you met this guy quietly; he is not for you.. And you decided to go for it and give it a chance anyways, because you thought you might miss a good chance with a "great" guy..


 The clue is that if something pop in your way, and you hold your hand to grab it and it's not falling in your hand, and you have to run after it, means that it was just a trigger, it was not mean to be. But the issue here is for me still; I get confused that which one is my soul's whisper and which one is my obsession and my ego triggering me, which one is my outcome goal oriented capricorn personality and which one is the real thing that is coming from the above. I am currently in the middle of breaking up with a guy that I was debating to go out with for a month that had warning signs of past experiences, but my friends told me, that I have a big ego and you are going by your list and that is not a way to find love, he might be the one, I didn't know if my heart was telling me don't or it was my ego, and I couldn't stop thinking about him, finally I decided to do it, and as soon as I did, even though we connected perfectly at first, right the day after some crazy things happened that ruined everything, I wont go to details, but ever since then I feel like I have to prove myself to him and I have been trying and trying to feel good about it, but I couldn't, I still didn't know if my ego is standing in my way, and wanting things that is not suppose to want and let things go with the flow(since i was being called"demanding" all the time by hi), or is it the universe telling me that you should have listened to your heart and trust me, let it go...Finally I am at the stage that my soul is tired and I don't have anymore energy to try to make things good and stop feeling there is something missing and don't "want" too much from him... And as I was thinking this, he told me he is going to a long trip out of country for work.. Universe was speaking and helping me.. 

This is what happens, when you do something you were meant to do for your soul, universe backs you up..Of course since then I've been going back and forth cause the door is still open as he is away, but I know in my heart this has served its purpose, and fear of not feeling that way again is trying hard to hold on to what it has right now..Thank you guys for reminding me today, a heart needs a reminder everyday how important it is..."

Now those days are long gone, and after taking trips and refreshing myself and snapping out of that state I can look back and laugh at myself... I have moved on and pretty grateful that I didn't continue on that path, but one lesson did stay with me from that and has been clearing my mind ever since; 
Listen to your heart, it's always talking to you, and it's always right, at the end of the day that is the one that hold the key to your joy and happiness, so listen to it, it's all inside you..

Love,
Danubelle