I know, it has been a while since I've written, but don't you think this makes it more special? I suppose it doesn't need to be that special! Who am I Maya Angelo?
I had one of those great Sundays today, the ones that you always expect to have; cook, clean, do your assignments, do laundry watch a bit of hockey, sort out your papers, relax.. I don't know if to others this sounds like a boring Sunday or not, but to me a stress free day is perfect. So tonight after all that, I was thinking perfect day doesn't include anything specific it just means you being OK with the now. It does sounds cliche doesn't it?
Something funny happened today that made me realize how far I've become. Lately I've been feeling that everything's great other than my social life. I've been wondering when am I going to meet a guy whom I feel I could enjoy my time with and spend time with. So today my roommate tried to set me up with his friend, without any notice! Can you imagine meeting a guy for a first time in your pajamas? :)
Anyways, the main point actually is that I was shocked that he thought I would like such a person, I won't go through the details about why I thought he's not good for me but lets just say today I had an A-ha moment; that I don't need to be with anyone.
Anyways, the main point actually is that I was shocked that he thought I would like such a person, I won't go through the details about why I thought he's not good for me but lets just say today I had an A-ha moment; that I don't need to be with anyone.
I know I have probably said that before and lots of people say it as well, but to actually feeling it, it's a different matter. I thought; why would I feel bad about this guy not being good enough for me? I don't have to be with anyone if I don't meet the guy I like! Simple! This single sentence actually makes things a lot easier in your mind. Because As a women half of your day is taken by looking and behaving how guys want you too. I could say it was liberating! Suddenly I felt, oh I could just relax now!
This is called things being perfect! Just perfect! And it still does not include being a millioner, or having the perfect guy, or the check list I've had in my mind( which is rappidly changing I must say, I've been having so many clarifications when I'm mediatitng which I will get into detail of it in another day) . Perfect means OK, OK with what is going on right now, with what you have right now and how you feel right now. This would be the moment you will feel you are living.
Think about it, a perfect night, what would it look like? It does not need any of the things in that check list does it?
Good Night
May 05,2011
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