Is this my Apple Tree?

Is it always easy to forgive another? When we know better, we do better. Remember this quote from Maya Angelo? For me this is the answer to our forgiveness. 

 Every time someone does some harm to me, or I get hurt by what they do, I start the process of forgiving them to be able to move on. I know, that feeling of resentment and hatred, that grudge might hold me hostage for years and decades. It is sometimes quite hard to do that I know, but at the end of the day I say to myself all I need to remember is;

Every person has their own life lessons to learn and their own demons to deal with. It is not my responsibility to teach them that or take it personally. I could help them out and if they ask for help I will do what I can do, but that is a different matter. The best I can do for them is to forgive them and let them go. I don't have to like them, or talk to them, they don't even have to know that I have forgiven them, I just have to separate what they did from their true self and know that this is their ego and not the real self, since our real selves come from one source. 

The fact is as humans, we do what we know, this is how far we have come. We all have been conditioned differently in our life circumstances, family environments, up bringings, the personalities we've been given as tools... And as we go through life, we learn new things, we conquer new battles, we reach different levels, and add to our knowledge of self, and our life and the true reality of our beings, we slip, we fall, we get back up, we get knocked down, we take a different path, we hurt others by our choices, we hurt ourselves by our choices,... Why do we do it?

We are learning, we are trying, had we known it is wrong and we are hurting ourselves by hurting others, would we have done it? . 

Think of it this way, maybe we are here on this planet and in the human bodies because Adam and Eve chose the path of ego and picked those apples. We are learning how not to pick that apple when we are not suppose to and if we do, The love will give us another chance, and another chance, and another chance,… until when? until we learn. 

So every soul in this universe is dealing with their own apple tree at this moment, and our apple tree right now might be that we have to be able to forgive another soul, for picking that apple. And next time when we see an apple tree we will stop to wonder.. 

So what this brings us to? 

When we know better, we do better. Next time you are about to judge another soul, remember; This might be your apple tree.

Thank You Maya

Love 

Danubelle 

Good Morning Ego!!

Have you ever had this pattern in your life, waking up in the morning and all the mind work, spiritual work and meditation you did the day before has gone out the door?

I have noticed lately that right the second I open my eyes, everything seems so clear, and feels like a harsh reality wakes you up by pouring cold water on your face. I have had most of my crazy messages, impulsive behaviour and panic attacks along with crying, etc. right after I have woken up.  

I never thought about it on a second level. I use to think; well  the reason I feel this way is because this is the reality, and i should be mad at him, or  I should be freaked out because I don't have a job, or I should be panicking because I don't have any money,... and as the day goes by I start to calm myself down, and do what I do to get things going and calm myself down. But these are on the days that I can control it, on the bad days, I have sent needy messages, angry messages,etc. And had to pay for my morning later on. 

So what is this about? I use to think it's my higher conciseness trying to wake me up, and because I just woke up fresh my ego hasn't kicked in and I am looking at things from fresh eye and see the harsh reality, and all the nice talks, and spiritual helps that I got yesterday was just a fake nice thing to make me feel better. 

But now I am not so sure, cause if most of the egomaniac things I've done was the after math of the morning shock and never turned out good, maybe it's the other way around, maybe these are all the deep down fears and angers and insecurities that are ready to pop out first thing in the morning.

I am coming to a conclusion that these panicky thoughts and "harsh reality checks" that wake me up, are just my ego of having the highest strength right after I wake up, given the fact that my mind has been resting the whole night. 

Now that I know this, I have decided to make a rule of not doing anything radical and send no responses or have any reactions to others in the morning, until I know I have passed the danger zone and I can think clearly and tell that ego to go away.  

My only regret is those silly useless messages I have sent that had bad consequences. Or maybe they were meant to be sent I am not sure, but this makes me wonder;

Why do things feel so clear and harsh with no feelings in the morning if they are coming from my ego? Which one is real really?

So I am putting this in to test, observe what is happening, take a moment and look from far away and see what I feel about my thoughts, I think you can always tell by how you feel about your action from far that if it is coming from ego or your true self. Do I look silly? Am I judging myself with those thoughts? Am I looking to hurt someone or prove myself right with that message?  

Just one minute of holding your phone in front of you and looking at what you are doing might do the trick, one minute of observing your panicky thoughts will tell you; these are just thoughts, your ego has rested the whole night, gained its energy to have the biggest punch the second we let it enter the ring.  

So, all I can say is;  

Good Morning Ego, and have a nice day!! 

Love  

Danubelle

Billboards Or Diaries...

I have realized something over the time;

That I have to protect my desires and life purposes. When I keep it to myself and quiet, it gets protected from the negative energy around it.

Ever since I was 10 I knew that if I want to make something happen I don't want to tell anyone about it, until it is a reality. I thought it was just coming from a superstitious mind, but recently realized why that was; If others don't know, they won't feed you their negative energy and thoughts, haters won't participate in your ego feeds.

And another trick is not to think about. I know they have always said that you have to desire and then let it go. And now I know why; the less you contemplate on it, the less your ego wants to get involved, any of my desires that I have received and became a reality, were desires that just thought of one afternoon and then forgot about it. You focus on life and the present moment, and not let "thoughts" to participate in your purpose. Your purpose comes from above. So stop trying to explain it to yourself or anyone else. Protect your desires from your ego and others...

So as carrie brawshaw always started her notes with; I can't help but wonder: ​

Are billboards more effective or our diaries... Which one comes first? it is a no a brainer is it? Our desires and life purpose belong to our diaries, keep it there and sign off on it and put it in nightstand drawer. ​

Billboards will come to your help once you are ready to announce to the world what you have achieved and which page of your diary is ready to be published.​

So protect your desires, protect your purpose. Be quiet about it, if you don't tell others about it, they cant talk you out of it, a short thought for the day, try it and let me know what happens. 

Love

Danubelle