Free Will

I was listening to Eckhart Tolle today talking about Free will. I've had this question in my mind since I was 9 I think. I can actually remember in my religion class( yes we did have such a class in our school !!) I drove my teacher crazy; she kept talking about how GOD knows everything that happens and will happen and will not happen and at the same time she would say: we are responsible for our actions.

So I kept asking her, if he knows what is going to happen it means I don't have any power in what is going to happen! How would he know if I haven't made my decision yet! And she never had an answer of course :)

What do you think? I've had this question since then, up until now in the back of my mind, and without realising it I was getting closer and closer to the answer. Today I had an A-ha moment when Eckhart was talking and that having the Free Will is in our hand; if you are present and act from  consciousness, and act as a flute for universe(which is term a poet used name Hafiz) you do have Free Will, since YOU are THE CONSCIENCES. But if you act from ego and non presence, in other words from your mind, you are losing that free will since you are not acting conscious. Does that make sense?

I should explain this a lot more clear and more simple once I put it in practice. It makes me feel very happy  that finally I solved my 3rd grade problem. I should again and again thank Eckhart for his once again liberating words...

Anyways, I'm doing OK these days, keeping busy with my final projects, 2 more weeks left on this term. I'm enjoying it actually. I think I'm getting closer and closer to who I am if I don't lose myself in outside world again, it is very challenging I have to say. And whenever I wake up from it and come back to myself, I realise I've been doing things other people's way and not my way.

When you look around and watch others, you can see that most people's problems are because they are losing themselves in the world, that's why they don't have true free will. Of course they can lift up their arms if they decide to(for most people ) but can they find solutions to their problems? This is another A-ha moment I had couple of weeks ago that I forgot to mention; Problems acquire  not because we don't have free will and they are out of our control; our consciousness creates those problems because it want us to realise we need to change something or to realise something.

If you try to fix a problem by pushing it, or work against it, you will create another problem, haven't you noticed ? I have!

Problems are our higher consciousness poking us small or big to make us notice we need to change direction or choose a different solution. So I realised what I can do is to listen to the problem, see what is telling me, and go with it... Isn't that liberating? I'm using this word a lot today, sounds cool today :)

I'm going to practise this free will and see which direction is going to take me. I was thinking the other day about the man I fell in love with in the past, which he never loved me back, or at least I don't think he did, since I moved here and never heard from him again. I miss him every now and then, and just choose to think about him and it always makes me feel better just to think about him.

Anyways, not getting off track, I was thinking why that didn't happen, and realised did I really wanted it to happen? or did I just wanted to love someone without going further? I suddenly realised, I still want to know who I am and what I'm doing in this place, and if I trust the higher consciousness which is in me, I should know, I didn't want to be with anyone because I needed to be with myself first.

So my conclusion was I chose this because this was deep down what I wanted, I wanted to love a man because I had never loved before and I wanted to know how it feels like, but I didn't want to be someone else's love. I don't think I'm ready to practice my freedom and being someones love at the same time yet. My sense of Free Will is pretty new and someone else's will my effect it.

If you love someone and you don't need them to love you back it gives you the freedom in love you never thought you could have in loving another human being.

A thought for today to practice :)

Have a great weekend

Danubelle

June 04,2010